
At the same time shouldn't your mental awareness be more acute now since greater exposure to how everything really is would cause you to trust forward in learning more about why the material world world was fashioned the way it was... possibly for God to teach some things before the next life?
It took a long time to teach my mind the deeper understandings Imy soul was exposed to in my NDE. For the first ten years the net effect for my mind was to tell as many people as I could that I loved them. It did help somewhat but when my first wife left me and told me she did not love me it devastated me, I even quoted scripture and told without love we have nothing at all. It crushed me and I felt betrayed by God. I had quit my job and went into serious depression. When my insurance lapsed, I was struck from behind by a car going 50 mph. My wife and three children gone, even my family biological family did not want me around and so with my legs numb and nowhere to go, I became homeless. I was living in a tent by a lake and I got down on my knees and prayed to God and told God that I did not want to live any more and I asked God why God tild me to learn about love when there was not one person in the whole who loved me. God spoke to me in an audible voice that morning... God told me, " I didn't promise you that people will not break your heart... People will break your heart..." Then God told me, I promised you that I would never leave you nor forsake you." That is when I figured out what the real deal was. From then on I became an ambasador for God. I have spent most of my life since then helping others. I guess it has not been financially rewarding but it has given me a rich life.
I believe my mind and my soul are in a war to control my life. My mind wants logical answers but my soul just wants to serve Yah. My soul usually wins the battle because my soul knows what is important and my soul knows what is forever. Then there is my fles44My mind focuses on helping others when my soul & mind are working together
because this is the substance of what makes it to the other side. My mind feels like a slave to my soul sometimes when this is happening thouh because I put so little importance to what makes one successful in the world. The Soul and the Mind are not the same h which doesn't need logic or God. In any case, I can see that having had a NDE has given me some advantages because people know I am coming from a place of sincerity. That has given me some advantages in my life somehow... Sometimes, people are put in my path by God draw out more from be so that I can be a vehicle to do the will of Yah(lovingkindness)... I know now that what is important is Yah's love and not people's love...The whole world could chase me down and hang me on a tree and I would still have a loving home to return to. I gues knowing that does help but I am not sure if I learned it from my NDE... I think anyone could have come to the same conclusions...But we might get there from different paths... In the end though, all path will eventually lead back to the source of infinite love. I guess that is some good stuff to know. I wanted to thank the folks that visit this site for the questions. I know I don't have all of the answers to your questions about the other side but I hope my journey gives some comfort. Heaven is more real than here and now. I hope if my mind can't express what I know in my spirit that you can at least see I am trying to be as open as possible. There may even be some symantic contradictions in what I say but I am trying to be as open an honest as I can.
It is interesting that you refer to your mental changes as a feeling. Since I guess you are saying that emotions ruled out logic. Did you ever find yourself wondering if you really did have an After life experience? Did you never wonder that even for a brief second?
It is not logical that one's loving intentions can create a wave that can envelope the world but I am so certain about this statement that it is is a fact to me. What I feel about my NDE is different then what I know from my NDE... I know with more certainty than I am typing this message right now that I have been to heaven and been in the presence of God but when I say "feel," it is not that I doubt what I am saying but rather I "feel" that I am saying what I know to the best of my ability to say it and I hope I communicated what I know. It is difficult to say spirit with words without those words taking on some unintended meaning. As far as doubting my NDE, I have never doubted that it happened for even a nanosecond... It is there before me right here...right now...it is alweays there... Edited: rudi on 17th Mar, 2006 - 3:48am