Here is just a little-
~My Heart~
My brain feels contorted and mis-shapened, pressure building in my face waiting to explode
The pain within my heart knocking at the door
Waiting to be let out into my system of hate and decay
All oppose to my violence die, who's wicked inner thought and beauty crushed
This whisp of air and creation love and desire all vanish into the air we breathe
As my mighty wrath of terror unleash from the depths of my heart
From my eyes the pain and refrain of every blow struck upon my back
To the tears on the ground that pour down my eyes
Hell brought upon my fingertips
And heaven shun upon by my wicked thoughts
My heart is exploding in a wrath unknown to the simpleton
For it kills in complex dances
They stare into my eyes, baffled by my inner beauty
They see only the shell, and not the real man within
My beauty turns to hate...my heart becomes a beast...
lashing out at the simple minds of the fool who couldnt see me
the simpleton whos community mind was struck away by my terrible force and explosion..
Pain ejaculates out, and creeps back over me
My heartbeat ever slowing
Until it stops in a eary silence
Death. Death, the end of my pain...the end of my legacy...the end of Me
Alone
All alone in the darkness
Where no light fell
Lay a boy drenched in tears
On a bed of fears
His pain was great
And his love was gone
The boy's heart was cold and dead
From all the hate in his head
So there he lay, in his bed
With evil thoughts, within his head
From all the people who cast him down
To his closest friends that pushed him aside
But in his darkness and hate and decite
A girl walked in
And plunged into the veil of dark
In her heart, was a great love
This love pushed away the darkness
And reached into the lost boys heart
His hate and death was no more
A small lit candle float lit in his soul
Yes, some of it is. I find myself 'misunderstood.' I don't mean to brag or anything-but im somewhat of a complex person. I find myself- totaly frustrated by people that just look at me like-"whhhattT??" So I write poetry to kind of relive the pressure within my soul. It builds up from their insecurity-and misunderstanding and so on. I like to explain it as like poison or..a poison mist, that has corrupted my soul or my inner self-body. When I write-I utilze that poison and make it into thise strong blast of these..eh..'beautiful' words, or so i think them.
I dont want to come off as a braggart, but its really hard to keep from belitting ones self in respect, when everyone around me are total fake insecure and, to be blunt and painfully honest-stupid. ^^ I appologize if I come off that way.
I just mean taht i say something, and some people are totaly baffled by what i say-and they see what i say and they misinterpret me and judge me without letting me clarify or tell them. I guess what i mean is...Its hard to deal with simpler people when you are so intrictly weaved (again dont mean to brag >.<) Its frustrating..Thats all i mean by misunderstood.
For her kiss
I yearn for her kiss
From her soft sweet lips
My heart yearns
But my head burns
Her face to mine
Pressed together, unified
She far away
How far I cannot say
I love her everyday
At night I pray
For her gentle lips
Pressed to me
We are a couple
When seen, we are together
I love her
More than any brethren
There were times before
That I could not soar
My life was chained
Banned from a life
She set me free
Now I can see
I love her
And she loves me
I yearn for the kiss
From the beauty that I miss
Until the end of life
We will live in bliss
Where we will be given no strife
Maybe all that see us, envy
But be it may, I do not care
My sweet gives me air
Without, I would die
With her we can fly
I love her
And together we will be
Until the day we fall and die
But still we"ll fall together
Connected as one pure light
Then and only then will I no longer long for a kiss
From my beautiful lady
Upon an Earthly Pole
Ashes to Ashes
Dust to Dust
The power of love is eternal
Ever stronger than lust
Ashes mold around my being
Dust lay under my feet
Although I stand tall and steady
My heart lacks the rhythm and beat
The chains clank upon the cobbles
My shackles squeeze into my feet
The sound of death tolls near
My life soon gone-the creator I will meet
Metal hooves crash down around my body
Wooden carts trail behind me
They lead me to my final flame
The one I was bound to see
The pole juts high into the heavens
The kindle lay strewn above hell
Heavens hand will fall for me
Hells fire will call and yell
The rhythmic tune of the vowed men fly
Their robes wisp quietly in the night
Godly prayers enter me
See that this unfaithful practice-will make them gain their sight
My clothes are stripped
And I am bare
Let the men of god see
Let them stare
The words wither out of the serpents mouth
His snake like eyes burn under the heavens light
His knees begin to tremble
And his speech is ever more pathetic-now crying out in fear
The cross is stained upon my head
The false symbol of Christ now done
The time of trail is finally upon me
Alone on an earthly pole-for they have won
Blood is painted upon my breast
Oil is thrown upon the kindle
The flames of hell ride high tonight
Whilst my hope begins to dwindle
Fire is spread unto my feet
My skin melts as the unholy fire burns me
The people scream at my body
My eyes have melted and I cannot see
No ears no eyes
No nose nor skin
My ashes lie upon the ground
No one is left-not even kin
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
My soul floats with the wind now
With ever breeze and every gust
Growing Pains
My heart floats
In my polluted system
Corrupt society
Where I"m floating
With my heart
Floating there
I tried love
Pain is love
All I get is pain
Am I there for her, or for me?
Bitter sweet hurt
Biting on my lips
Cutting my fists
Loves a pain
Life is a game
A frame for the real picture
Life is nothing without love
Love is nothing without pain
Pain is nothing without hate
Hate is nothing if there is no fear
Fear is back my rear
I can't look back
I lack the strength
To look around my shoulder
See my love there
See the pain in evil everywhere
I can run and hide
But my soul is there
Floating in the air
This pain, I cannot bear
So then I fight
Standing in the light
Proud but pained
From life itself
I look evil in the face
Through the chase of soul
My eyes fixed
Its black fiery soul leaping about
Long a stout
I"m about to pounce
Waiting for the hate
But its too late
I"m dead
All seen is red
Now life is nothing
My life is nothing
And my pain is locked up forever
No longer can I float
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