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Well it has been a while again. Lots of things both good and bad have gone on since last post.

I made it down to the St. Louis area and was able to say goodbye to my brother. He was a great man a man of god who dedicated his life to god and to inmates in prison to help them see the light and be saved and reformed to walk a path of life and light instead of being in the dark. I know he touched many people in his life and it was very evident from the comments and kind words that I heard while down there. I know there were many who could not approach me since I look so much like my brother. They could not believe that he was gone, I know I could not believe it at times either. Seeing him in the casket and being able to talk to him helped me bring closure to that part. I even went out to the crash site and looked at it to put it all together on how it happened.

It was almost a month later to the day that my father passed away. Leaving me as the only child left and my mother. Now I need to take care of her and all of the properties they and myself own. Not that many just three. But taking care of three houses is not always easy. I know that I can do it I was just hoping to not do it now. But life goes on and he was pretty much on the down hill slide due to colon cancer and Leukemia. I am glad that he is in a better place and free of pain.

December was more relaxing as we got ready fro the holiday season. I am happy that I was able to give the family a nice Christmas and that life is looking to be more relaxing now. Lots of stress is not out of my life. Now that brings us to the new year. We did the family tradition of pancakes at Ihop at midnight. I remember a few years ago when it was just five of us. Now it has grown to some good friends and more family. We showed up at Ihop with 18 people on the 31st of December 2015 to ring in the new year. It was great times. And a nice tradition that is growing yearly.

I hope that you all have a wonderful New Year and that 2016 is very good to you all.

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It has been over a year since I last posted. For me 2016 was a great year. I was able to find and make contact with many of my relatives that I have not seen since 1980. I found out I have nieces and nephews I did not even know about with one niece having two kids and a third one on the way. To make it even better she is in the same town with me. Her mom is just a town over. It is always good to hang out with and get to know family that I was missing even though I did not realize it. I am working hard to keep in better contact with them now and it is taking a good portion of my time but to me it is all worth it. Now it is time to see what 2017 brings me.

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Well the sirgery for my mother did not go as expected. Now the doctors are looking at another method to try. This is all over her kidneys. They were going to put in stents to try to get them to drain better. Since the stents were a failure they will put temporary tubes in her back to try to get her kidneys to drain and function better. We will have to wait and see as time goes on.

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Looks like the surgery was a success. Now we will see how things go and have a follow up in a couple weeks. We will have to go see a kidney specialist in a couple weeks and see how this effects her kidney function. Hope all goes well from here on out.

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My High school.

I do not talk much about my high school since I moved to the town that was part of it in the eighth grade. I was thrust in a school that most everyone was related to each other. A graduating class of 78 people. I was bullied through out high school all four years. If I was pushed however I did fight back. No one I got in a fight with ever pushed me that far again. My name is Douglas. My names in high school were Dog or Douche. Teachers just called me by my last name. I did not talk to girls in high school and if I looked at a girl her brothers or relatives made sure I did not look at her again. It is a wonder that I survived. I remember sitting in assemble and the boys behind me using push pins between their fingers to slap me on the back and tell me what a good dog I was. I had girls laugh at me and tell me they would not date me as I was not good enough to date their cows. Yes I call it four years of hell and glad that I did make it through those years and still be half way normal.

It was in high school that I learned to love books and to be taken away from my life of pain by going to different places. I was always the one sitting in a corner with my back to the wall so no one could poke me full of holes and then get in trouble because I was moving about to much and had to sit in the principals office. I also remember a time walking down the hall and then being grabbed by a bunch of guys who held a knife to my throat and told me to tell everyone that I liked guys and wanted to suck their dicks. Oh yeah you can bet that was easily forgotten in high school. Or the time I was Taken behind the school and beat because a girl said I grabbed her boob the day before never mind I was not in school the day before because it was a Sunday. Just a rare glimpse into my life as a teen.

Edited: KNtoran on 9th May, 2017 - 7:07pm

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After dealing with a couple serious personal issues that helped me go into a depressed state of mind I am finally once again almost normal. It is easy to get into a very dark place and hard to get back out of it. I tend to push people away but those that really know me can still talk to me and I respond. I am just glad that I was able to claw my way out yet again.

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I really enjoy helping people out. I know a guy at work that wants to take a girl he likes to a Metallica concert coming up in June but he does not get paid until the Friday before the concert. SO I bought the tickets for him. Just a cool $276 for two tickets but I am sure he is going to be on cloud nine once I hand him the tickets. I know the girl he is taking too she is a real nice young lady. I hope that this makes both of their days today *smile*.

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Well I am sitting on vacation relaxing and having a great time. I have internet but it is very slow at best. This is why I am not posting much. The average post is taking five to ten minutes to get it up. I should be back at home by late Monday so as of Tuesday I may be able to post a bit more. There is a chance that late next week I will be making a trip to eastern PA to pick a person up and transport back to Iowa. The things I do for people *smile*.