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Nighthawk, I have noticed that you are the only member here that has endeavored to open their own user shop and was curious if you could give a review on your experiences here.

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Unfortunately, I am unable to respond in that thread.

I found the User Shop to be a complete waste, at least for me.

Nighthawk Introduction Sharing Member & Introductions

Nighthawk, my friend, I have learned a lot of things from you since you joined. I decided to follow-up on you a bit when I saw you post to my 'Could You Be Friends with JB@Trinidad' thread. I see you visiting now and again, posting here and there, but not with zeal as before. I also see many of your comments, once bright, to be very pessimistic now. Is all okay? I know at times you were going through depression. I am aware of how that can be. I know you took many posts here to heart, but I believe I have taken far worsts insults than you publicly and behind the scenes, so that should not get you down. Is all alright? Is there something I can do to help?

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It isn't really depression. It is total frustration. A few of the posts right at the end of my "active" time really wore on me. There was such a total feeling of contempt that I received from one member - contempt for my culture, contempt for my country, contempt for my President, contempt for my political beliefs, contempt for almost everything I hold dear.

Perhaps I was just too sensitive, but I decided I probably could not EVER respond to another of this person's posts. Now, if I see such posts, I can't get up the ambition to even try to answer them. I let this person get the last word, because it became totally useless to try to discuss any of these topics.

I think that over time, I was able to show that I could have discussions with people who disagreed with my point of view. But for some reason, I couldn't deal with the way these discussions went.

Then, to top it all off, there were two "drive by potshots" on the LDS - Democrat thread, that really burned me up. Both people obviously only joined so that they could post one message on that topic. One of them then accused me, and anyone else who disagreed with them, of arrogantly claiming to know more about Church doctrine than the Prophet. I realized that it didn't matter in such discussions whether or not I carefully craft my arguments, laid them out logically, and tried to show why and where I get my ideas.

Maybe it is a part of the depression showing up, that makes me sensitive to these things. But there have since been many, many times when I have written up fairly long, detailed responses, and then just decided it wasn't worth the aggravation any more, and dumped the whole thing. This is particularly true in the discussions about the Middle East, especially Israel.

I guess that I have made myself clear on these subjects, and can't be bothered to restate my position any more. I can't be bothered to post information that I get from various sources on these subjects, just to be told that those sources aren't any good, because they don't come from "real" journalists.

One time I really blew up. I admit it, and I guess that I knew it wasn't right when I did it. I stated, that in my opinion, a journalism degree is the second most useless academic degree in the world. That is my opinion. Everyone else is entitled to their own opinion. I guess that the response from that was what really drove the point to me that I was wasting my time in most discussions.

I finally decided to try to return. I ventured a simple news report. Again, my opinion, what I had to say about things that I hold to be important were shown to be held in contempt.

So, since I am not interested in discussing a lot of movies, celebrities, comic strips, games, etc, I haven't seen much that I am interested in discussing. I know that a lot of other people like to discuss these things, they just don't hold interest for me. I don't feel like putting myself up to ridicule and contempt any more.

I try to follow what is happening in the LDS boards, but just haven't had much to say. International, culture, etc, appears now to be outside of my ability to deal with.

So, that is why you don't see me participating much.

between, I think I could return to the duties of a moderator, except for all those feelings that are listed above. I can review messages, I just don't feel like putting my feelings out into my writing anymore.

Maybe that is the real problem. I really put myself into my writing. Probably too much.
(Hence the long, long responses at times.)

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I have read over your concerns and I understand what you are saying as I have read these Threads and in some cases 'refereed' them, however, I really feel that you have to just prepare to accept that despite your best argument - people will disagree.

Just as it is your right to exclaim one thing - it is their right to reject it. All that is asked in the Community is that we do not become personal with it. Let me dare say, I am a Member of about 40-60 other Communities of which I use for networking and in all honesty - we have gold here. I am not just saying that because I am the Admin of this site.

I have been flamed, insulted, cursed and banned from other Communities for just making a view point, asking a question and so on. I find people on the net to be generally sensitive and quick to form opinions based on two words joined together, and so feelings are hurt if you let it be so.

I am sure you will agree that you have learnt a lot of things while being here, you may need to focus on that. Does this place get me depressed sometimes? Very much so... I have to run it, maintain the codes, pay for it and a lot of times I feel it is really not worth it or appreciated save for a few, but I do not focus on that - I move on - I think of the good stuff - the learning - the expansion of knowledge - my friends. So there is something good here. Besides, we have over 100 Boards, only some of those about games and entertainment. You cannot tell me that Boards like 'Husband & Wife Tips' or 'Psychology' is beyond your interest. Culture or Science... those are good ones too. There are many more if you look... what about Business?

Again, if you adjust focus you look you will find neutral topics like Science, Paranormal, Religion, etc. Just keep away from the Political stuff until you are able to calm the little green giant.

Do not worry about it. Sometime ago I decided to phase out Moderation. I just have not made it official, but I think it is for the best as I feel it is no longer a necessity and sometimes becomes more work on my part to track everything / inform the Mods, enable their accounts, disable it when they are not here, and so forth for the level of actual Moderation (actually having to use their powers as a Mod) given in return.

Had everyone remained intact and kept to how we once were then a lot of these changes would not have been, but there was a period that it seemed like everyone disappeared and so I had made many adjustments months ago to not allow the 'fall' again.

Okay so back to Nighthawk... well, I just like seeing you here, just like I like seeing others who may counter attack your threads. Not because of a fight, but it builds understanding and perspective. I am not sure if I am explaining myself or feelings well - it is 1am here and the mind is slowing down. Again, if you need help with something, just let me know as you have stated the problem, but not the solution, if any.

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I appreciate your points. It is just that there are a few areas that I am passionate about.

As for a solution, I think I have found it. I won't respond to one or two members. I don't usually read their responses. I check the Hot Topics most days, and if there is anything that is new and/or interesting, I look at them and consider replying.

On to better things....

I have a talk to give in church today. It is focused on Spiritual Preparedness. I have been thinking and learning much about faith lately. How to really develop it, how to use it effectively. I don't know if I have any real insights to offer in my talk, but it will be interesting from my point of view.

The search for a new job goes on. I am getting lots of recruiters calling me ... from Michigan, Ohio, and South Carolina! I have to tell each of them that I am only interested in a job out West - in the Rocky Mountains.

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Nighthawk, my friend. I understand what you're talking about, and just wanted to let you know that. I miss your presence here, but I understand why.

Good luck with your talk today

Roz

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That is great, and I hope it works for you. With regards to work, I really hope you get what you desire. We are almost in the same boat as far as looking for jobs to meet our needs, but unfortunately I will never be able to make it to the West of the USA.