Reading your blog and hoping and praying for you ever diligently. Once upon a time I was a man of faith. Before the logic and the law of absolutes came into my life. There was one scripture that always gave me strength even in the hardest times, and in some ways still does.
Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Your acknowledgment of Christ reminds me of this. Maybe one of the only scriptures from childhood that I still remember can help you too.