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I did read your blog and immediately felt sad, but at the same time hopeful. Sad because of the amount of strain but hopeful because I can see you and
JB coming threw on this stronger than before.
I can't really imagine having to deal with such things. However I feel somehow you will prevail. One thing I would like to say is as they get older I think the strain will decline most likely. It is very hard to take care of a child of younger age because in general they just don't get it. Often they try and test you to see how much they can get away with. After time children grow out of this and tend to be more self sufficient. That said I realize you are in a different situation and they never truly grow out of it so to speak, in that sense.
The part that really hit me is that you feel like your not a happy person anymore. This may be a bit off of what you actually said but that is kind of what I got from what your post was. Maybe more that you feel your not allowed to be a happy person because of all the factors that continue to assault you daily.
I can relate to that and deal with that struggle daily as well. I don't know if it will help but for myself I try and find a center within me. I focus on my inner being that is positive and take a deep breathe. Letting it take over and allowing that inner force to guide my mood and actions.
Edited: Oliron on 23rd May, 2010 - 1:23am